Tuesday, December 28, 2010

confusion = galau = upset

confusion = galau
lately i always feel that word 

always crying when remember what he did
always hated my self when remember he did

i don't know what should i do
really , i don't know :"(
i just want my normal life back to me , please

Friday, December 24, 2010

Happy Christmas!

Merry Christmas , fellas !!
the bell is ringing 
let's sing to forget the bad things and remember the God's loving .
it is everlasting .

and filled this Christmas with love , peace and joy :)

this month is the last month in 2010 
I wanna say ,
thanks to those who hated me , you made me a stranger person
thanks to those who loved me , you made my heart bigger 
thanks to those who were worried about me , you let me know that you actually cared
thanks to those who left me , you made me realize that nothing last forever
thanks to those who entered my life , you made me who I'm today
Thank You for being there in my life whenever I might have meant to you .
Jesus Christ my Savior ♥
Parents , Sister 
my boyfriend ♥
my bestfriend   

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Christmas Night :)

today is Christmas Night
tomorrow Jesus Christ was born :)

God , bless this Christmas 
give the peace around the world .

Silent Night

Silent night, holy night!
All is calm, all is bright.
Round yon Virgin, Mother and Child.
Holy infant so tender and mild,
Sleep in heavenly peace,
Sleep in heavenly peace.
Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight.
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia,
Christ the Savior is born!
Christ the Savior is born.
Silent night, holy night!
Son of God love's pure light.
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With dawn of redeeming grace,
Jesus Lord, at Thy birth.
Jesus Lord, at Thy birth

let's counting days !!

Hey ya .
Have you counting days for Christmas Eve ??
Have you making a wish list to Santa Claus ??

Yesterday was Mother’s Day right ?
I can’t say Happy Mother’s Day , Mum .
I just can stare at her , say something that make her laugh .
I love my Mom for everything she has done for me .
I never want her to go out of my life .
I cant stand my life if there is no my Mom T.T
God , please bless my Mom and teach me how to loved her and always make her happy till the time is end .
I love you , Mom :”)

Those minutes where I am alone , just me and my bed pillow blankets .
I think .
A lot .
I think about everything , anything .
It varies from “What am I doing with my life ?” , “What are my boy doing right now?” , “Can I trust & keep his promise?” “How about my scores and my raport?”  to “Did I have homework or exam?”
The room is so silent , but my mind is so loud .
It drives me crazy because the things I would never think about , I think about .
Sometimes , I hate it because it brings up things I rather never think about again .
The split second before sleep is the most activate second in my life .
Its became my routine , but if I too tired I am laying down .

Then , I wake up .
Hoping the bad past was just a dream .
Unfortunately , that’s a realty , now I stand up to fix the wretch :)

Some people said
 “Life was much easier when Apple and BlackBerry were just fruits”
Really ?? I can’t say that was right or wrong .
Because I sometimes feel thats right and wrong .

Bye the way , yesterday I was wasting time with my Welly Radius .
I’m so happy , he is beside me , I can touch him whenever I want .
Watch TV , laying my head to his arms , got his big hug .

In love , there’s always a point of getting tired .
Especially when the person is untentionally making you feel worthless .
In relationship , it’s okay to fight .
It shows you care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to fix it .

It scares me ,
 How sometimes I think there is someone out there who can love you better I do .
Someone who wouldn’t easily get jealous .
Someone who could take care of you .
I’m just scared that there’s someone out there who can make you much , much happier .

- R - A - N - D - O - M - 

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Christmas Eve is Comingg !!

Hello Peopleeeeeeeeee :) :)
Christmas Eve is coming less than five days !!!
Me starting counting the days of course :D

Dear Santa , can i make make wish list please ??
Would you come and give me the present ??
Ah I hope :)

18 December 2010
Is the day for taking my raport , but because I had a plan with my bestie Lydia Lee so I didn’t take the raport .
And till now , I don’t know abour my score . Will share it when I take the raport .
In that day me with Lydia going to watch The Next Three Days  @ XXI Botani – 09:00 AM , after that eat @ Oenpao , then going to Ekalokasari for watch Narnia .
I’d shopping in there , oh my so fast for me to spending money . Ckck .
In fact I never like action film , but after watching The Next Three Days .. It’s changes  .
The Next Three Days is such a great movies . I don’t have doubt about it :D

20 December 2010
Korean Freak is gathering again .
No plan about this gath but here we are .
Sharing , watch video , listening music .
Just lil activity but mean so BIG for me :)
Then my beby texting me , he is want meet me .
I meet him and HE IS MAKE ME MELTING .
Lols , it is fact !! I don’t know why he can do that .

One faith, one flag, one mission and one love for INDONESIA.. Come on Garudaaaaa...!!! 
-Bambang Pamungkas

And bye the way , now I likes watch Football Match .
Honestly it is because Irfan Haarys Bachdim :D
I never likes watch football match before .
But Indonesia amazed me with GOOD result in every match .

I hope in this holiday ,
I have much story which I can share here .
Long time I not  blogging and it’s just becase Lazy . lols .

- R . A . N . D . O . M

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Bye Examination ;)

examination is FINISHED today !!!
I celebrate it with my beby and friends :)

still waiting about the score 
ugh I'm scare , God give Your miracle please :")

8 December is my lil sist birthday .
will share the photos ;)

bye the way , holiday is coming !!
wohooo .
what's your plan , fellas ??

will give you some 
- R A N D O M -