ily ♡

2012-02-09T04:46:00.001-08:00

i'm so upset :(

2012-02-06T07:23:00.001-08:00

i want you

2012-02-05T02:15:00.000-08:00

olla fellas ♡

is this love month ?? olala

599

today is my 29th month anniversary

just want you back byy :(

then my life , so down .

feel like dying .

not interest again to school . hiks

depressed too much

2012-02-04T03:07:00.001-08:00

2012-01-28T03:45:00.000-08:00

i'm so sick , ugh can't do anythings well :(

i miss my boy ..

Gorgeous 17th

2012-01-24T06:24:00.000-08:00

24 January 1995 , I was born .

and today is my gorgeous 17th . finally , I'm 17 .

thanks for Jesus , and parents :)

when I'm not blogging yesterday , I did so much things that I never imagine before .

I'm hurt more than anything , I feel dying inside so I try to kill my self *seriously* .

absence from class just for crying , no eat no drink no sleep for 5 days ..

but I know I should change , I'm seventeen now ..

my school is sucks now , trying to do the best always .

emm , I have accepted at Atma Jaya University , so I just still graduate from SHS .

btw tomorrow I will go to Puncak for reat reat .. wish me luck ..

and just share my little photoshoot at my roof

Gong Xi Fat Chai

2012-01-24T06:10:00.000-08:00

the dragon , is a symbol of Supreme Power that brings you prosperity and good fortune .

Gong Xi Fat Chai

Wan Shi Ru Yi

Shenti Jian Kang

Happy Chinese New Year for who celebrate it :)

my CNY so good . mum cooked so much dishes and dessert .

no special things this year ..

*btw I had deleted chat box . feel free to contact me at Twitter or Facebook ..

dying in deep blue feelings

2012-01-18T04:22:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry . I too much in love with you .

I can't live my life w/o you .

really , I want to DIE .

because w/o you is like dying :( I can't stand it .

no eat no drink and no breathe .

w/o you . I can't .....

2012-01-14T05:21:00.001-08:00

I DO STILL LOVE YOU. BUT I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE .

YOU HURTED ME . AGAIN AND AGAIN .....

holiday greetings

2012-01-02T06:38:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

and

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012

okay , I'm so lazy for blogging at my precious holiday time .

quick update :)

today I'm going to Atma Jaya again and have a lunch + watch Mission Impossible .

such a tired day , but yeah really exciting .

this holiday mum made much much dishes ..

Christmas Gift

2011-12-21T07:03:00.000-08:00

had a good day with my Sari Renata & Lydia Lee

full of laughing sharing and taking photo

I had take my report , I got rank :) thanks Jesus for Your Christmas gift .

need take a nap , bye fellas

bye the way I did this art works , even it's totally sucks :D

Go!

2011-12-15T05:23:00.000-08:00

gwad , I'm want my holiday so badly .

now I'm just do assgs and no studying . oh how come ....

but yeah , keep my spirit up . go go go !!!!

the day

2011-12-13T15:59:00.000-08:00

ulalala

yesterday I'm accompany W shopping , search for batik sweater socks .

one day full with him :)

tired but happy ..

hmm yesterday he said that wanna bought me a watch .

I dunno are that true , but .... I WANT IT SO MUCH .

so I browsing , then I found ... and that is too expensive .

huh , always , I like a expensive things .

then my teacher at school is really sucks , why don't you be like usual , Sir ?

but hell yeah , try to be good B)

and waiting for 21th gonna take my report and HOLIDAYYYYYYY

ah , I need go to school now for history and maybe will meet my girls at afternoon

xoxo

Christmas is coming to town

2011-12-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

good day everyone :)

I have re-new my header and layout and some blinkies .

what do you think ?? but I'm so in love with all of these .

because I love vintage much and much ♥

I made somethings new in this blog for welcoming Christmas and New Year !!

one year almost past again , so what's the plan ??

yesterday I spent the day with my only one Welly Radius .

his house - Sentul Circuit - wedang pemda - homey

first time I go there , watching drag bike and car too

first time too I eat baked bread + wedang at pemda .

thanks for the day , babyboo

2011-12-11T17:20:00.001-08:00

Syalalala~ happy

2011-12-10T17:36:00.000-08:00

guys! I have finished my final examination . lols .

and I'm so frustated . huh

but now I'll go to Drag Bike Sentul .

let's have fun there :)

final examination

2011-12-07T21:01:00.000-08:00

i'm in final examination .

sorry for the long hiatus . i'll be back soon :)

Lovable Lullaby

2011-11-26T06:01:00.000-08:00

...............................................

fly into bright blue sky or swim into blue froth waves

uhmm ...

blue blue blue ..

it's bad feeling right . but it's my Willhelm Edward Antoine Radius favorite colours.

his first motorcycle mio or now satria FU is blue .

bye the way, we still in relationship, we often break apart but never break our soul connection . I don't know why , but I know that I love you mr. Willhelm .

because not everything can be explained in words. when the beliefs in your heart is that strong, it must mean something.

I'm so grateful I have you baby , a man who always protect and caring me . loves me like no one man could be . hug me tightly and makes me feel comfort when I laying at your neck and arm :")

few days ago, I have tried one University, Atma Jaya Jakarta .

he accompany me even he didn't sleep at night . the test day we going to Monas first , HI circle after we arrived he sit beside me teach me some materials give me support . wait for me for 2 hours or more alone in raining day .

ILOVEYOU , ILOVEYOU , and ILOVEYOU

btw, when I'm on the way and seeing many big buildings . I think who can do all of that ?? I feel so small . I'm so freaking annoy that I'm really in big big world .

Mind Maintenance

2011-11-26T05:28:00.000-08:00

Hi guys, much much kiss and hug from me♥

long time no see yaa.

okay, what's up lately ?? I'm so bored about schools, material, sucks friend, bad habit, love problems, examination. oh .....

I do need some vacation but hell yeah I know I should be here face the real life . sometimes it's really hard, no one beside you, you can't turn into someone's arms, feeling so deeply blue. but once more I'm keep growing, I should have Mind Maintenance .

anyway you all shouldn't judge me by my look, what I have, what I tweet, what I wear. you don't know me at all guys. know me first then you will know who I am. I can love my friend so much and get sick of them!

judgmental people live in hypocrite life with hypocrite faces. so funny if you get angry with me just because you don't know me the best . like sick people whose lives aren't interesting till you are so busy taking care of other's lives

Softly Blush

2011-11-18T04:55:00.000-08:00

have quick photo session

thanks to WELLY RADIUS , for being my best photographer ever !!

-xoxo-

Proudly

2011-11-14T16:50:00.000-08:00

when I'm doing my assg, I found that pics is Google and that pics was too awesome . I'm so Proud being Catholic :)

spirit inside

2011-11-13T00:10:00.000-08:00

Good Afternoon guys. it's been a long time .

and I do miss my blog so much :D

so much things that happens . ugh .

lately my problems is SLEEP!!! yes sleep because every time I wanna sleep so much . at class when want study at home or at course . what shud' I do then :((

for 5 days I'm in holiday, my junior went to Jogya .

and my assg is like mountain .

spirit spirit , just do the best :)

- R . A . N . D . ♥ . M -

Brownies Amanda, my fav cake too

my artwork :D

big deal

2011-10-09T03:39:00.000-07:00

hello October , hello my life , and hello fellas :)

thanks God , I'm still here .

sorry for the long hiatus btw . I feel my life is so heavy to be living . tomorrow I had mid terms but I not max effort , backstabber talks behind me , problems ruin my brain .

BIG DEAL :(

I never want to be like this , I know I should choose to be happy .

but soooo hard yeah .

now I'm trying to live my life with happiness .

little bit of hope

2011-09-17T21:10:00.000-07:00

God .

I know You were here .

I know You never leave .

I know You never sleep .

God .

please give me strength . I'm tired being broken .

Splendid Lighters

2011-08-28T06:52:00.000-07:00

my life is so dark

I need air , freedom and someone who can give my life Splendid Lighters

okay , I'm in Ramadhan holiday . not much I can say here , I'm just feeling so upset . Please make me feel comfort for a while ...

two days ago I have gathering with my babes

and here they are ...

and this is my favorite cookies ever

2011-08-13T08:11:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so blue if I like this .

okay my life it's not just about you !!

my family , school even my book is my life too .

but why I cant go away from you ?? :"(

Flown Away

2011-08-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

heihooo guys !

watch out I'm here again :D

lately , I'm not in the mood for living my life .

my soul was flown away to the highest sky .

I can't do my assg , homeworks , and anything good .

I am so frustated . but now time for me to wake up and share the shines :)

I went to Botani Square two days for shopping and watching Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows part II , got two heels , yummy foods , excellent dessert , and new glasses !!

thanks a lot for my God and my parents .

I've got 100 score at accounting and 90 at religion .

hope will be like that always :)

bless me God .

- R . A . N . D . ♥ . M -

Ngohiang , special food from Bogor .

and this food it's extremely GREAT !!

The first time watched movie with all my struggle .

too many people that want watch this movie too .

Last Thursday, when I do my group work at school . then waiting for my lil sist .

I have watched Marching Band primary school , so cool . they can be very compact , why we can't Senior High ??

My art , wayang . so ugly yeah .

2011-08-06T18:55:00.000-07:00

Red

2011-07-24T07:43:00.000-07:00

not much to say

Absence

2011-07-21T20:33:00.000-07:00

sorry for the long hiatus ,

now I'm here with everything I have got here .

though I have been in a ~~very down side~~ of my life .

I am in school again , I am XII grade now . too much things that make my brain working hard . about subjects , college . but it's okay , I WILL FIGHTING for my Jesus , parents and everyone who loves me a lot :)

bad news , I'm school with bad healthy :( I'm sick witch make me can't focus at school .

but now it's my healing period . thanks Jesus :)

I should be at Bina Nusantara today with my school now , but because I love my boy and my boy won't come , so I don't come too . I do exciting but after all , he wasn't appreciated me .

it's okay anyway . don't think for unimportant things .

now I do have my own Passion , and I will working hard for it :)

bye the way , in last post I promise for share my Old City photo's right ??

so , here they are ...

Tired

2011-07-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

olalaa hey fellas :) whats going on ??

yesterday I had best quality time with my Junior High School bestie and friends .

we went to Old City and Plaza Semanggi .

the crew :

♥ Me

♥ Nathania Devina

♥ Sari Renata Manik

♥ Merina Lydia

♥ Febri Rosa

♥ Agatha Gusanda

♥ Damiana Resya

♥ Renhard Halomoan

♥ Tommy Setiawan

we hunting photos and chillin out in Plangi .

duriing that photo session I am using 7cm heels .

whoaa I am tired like hell , till now I am still tired .

tomorrow I will take my photos and will share it in here :)

nye the way , next Monday I will back to school .

wish me luck :D

Rebound Story

2011-07-05T08:42:00.000-07:00

HOLLA

I'm so missing bloggie so much , because my keyboard space was broken I can't easily writing .

but today I have the new one , ultra -flat keyboard .

yipeeeyyyy

so , how about your holiday guys ?

emm . for me is ... holi~~SHIT~~day :(

I'm just doing nothing at home , watching korean dramas , shopping , playing with bestie , course , go out with boyfriend .

but yeah every I go out I have many many story :)

One weeks to go , I come back to school routine plus two course and many activity for National Examination .

gawd when I am thinking about it I'm successfully depressed .

and again i just have to be patient .

Friday, 31 June I had lunch Korean foods like tokpokki , jeon , gimbab and Japanese food at Takigawa plus Baskin Robbins half gallons for homeey .

wonderfull taste I have got in Takigawa :) sorry for the bad pics , because inside Takigawa is dark .

today . 5 July 2011 is my 22 months anniversary .

relationship based my own way and his patient .

but , when he leave , I just feel lost .

I do too much in love with him , no offence he hurts me the most , but I dunno why I can forgive him again and again .

for fact , when he broke my heart I just cant stop loving him .

iloveyou so much my babybeeboo .

- R . A . N . D . <3 . M -

XII!

2011-06-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

Jesus eyes is NEVER close !!!

I have realized that statement .

Karma is really happens !!

the boy is lying me , I just crying and he is get problems .

God never left me :)

bye the way , I am in really holiday .

I have take my raport at 18th June , and got ranking .

oh God , You are my Lord forever :)

ah , I am tired for living my life .

but I think for my future , I still have a looooong way and journey .

yesterday I was making pan cake , and it's so fun and delicious too:D

Chellepaholic

2011-06-16T05:33:00.000-07:00

actually , I got nothing to write .

my brain was work so hard . my heard was almost died .

but what can I do ? just live the life right ?

okay I know , no one would ever understand and care.

I am UPSET , ACHED , and BROKEN .

I don't feel like eating drinking doing anything and BREATHING .

I couldn't fall asleep .

and my hands was hurts .

the colours is blue like my feeling .

poor my body . I love every parts of my body :(

holiday will be holiSHIT .

umm . nope . I will do many this I like just because I'm SINGLE .

feel don't wanna any boy again :( I'm hurts

Chellepaholic , it is mean that I'm a holic with my own self .

so WHAT THE HELL

Bestie Partay

2011-06-16T05:07:00.000-07:00

hello bloggie . here I am .

I have typing lately but my PC my broken and my post is gone .

but I will type again now .

so, what's happens ?? are you looking at the lunar eclipse yesterday ??

lols

4th June 2011I went to my Sari Renata Manik sweet 17 partay !

and the party was so cool especially the photographer Renhard .

this is the Birthday Girl

*note : she is in Live In now :D

and the other pics

FINAL EXAMINATION

2011-06-08T06:42:00.000-07:00

I'm in

FINAL EXAMINATION

but tomorrow is the lasy day .

wish me luck , fellas .

i'll be back with many stories baby :D

♥

experience in my life

2011-05-27T09:46:00.000-07:00

hi, fellas .

what's going on lately ??

here I am , back after a loooong time !!

so , what should I share you guys about ??

emm . last week I have go to Yogya for study tour and live in .

with my boyfriend we walk over Malioboro Street , 12.00 PM still meet him . at the morning meet him .

really I miss that moments so much !!

I am live in at Bantul, Imogiri .there I studied much about field , karawitan and batik .

many experience I have got from there .

will share many photos guys :D

and now I'm so busy with presentation and religion paper .

ahh . anyone can help me ?? sigh

- R . A . N . D . ♥ . M -

quizzes for boredom

2011-05-27T06:58:00.000-07:00

uh i'm so bored .

doing this quizzes for nothing

If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now, do you think they would be mad?

yes

Are there any relationships you wish could have lasted longer?

yes, one relationship

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?

yeah too much

Can you read other people’s expressions?

nope

Do you give out second chances?

depends

Are you in any type of gang?

Do you think extensions look fake?

not all

What would you do if your parents walked in on you having sex with the last person you kissed?

my parents will kick my bottoms out from house

Who knows your biggest secrets?

Jesus

Is love worth fighting for?

100% yes

What would you do if your ex broke down and told you he loved you?

bullshit

People who can always calm you down?

no one

Do you think a lot of people think/talk bad about you?

MUCH

How was today?

it was alright

Your ex is at your front door! What do you do?

do nothing

Who was your last text from?

friends

Last person you hugged?

my lovely bolsters

When did you last straighten your hair?

never

Do you know anyone who should not wear tight clothes?

oh yeah

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

MUST BE MORE HAPPIER

Today, would you rather go forward a week or back a week?

back please . me want in Yogya again

Are you the type of person who likes to be out or home?

i loves stay at my boy :D.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?

blackberry storm II would be too nice

Who, out of all your friends, do you trust the most?

no one

Think back to your last kiss; looking back now, was it a mistake?

no it wasn't.

If you could only drink one thing for a month, what would it be?

mineral water

Honestly, what is your opinion of your last ex?

i'm forgot all about him

If you had a plane ticket to anywhere, where would you go?

Rome

Honestly; are you trustworthy?

yap

Who’s the last person you had a serious conversation with?

mum

Which friend do you miss right now?

no one

Where’s your favorite place to get ice cream from?

baskin robbins

Who did you hang out with last?

boyfriend

What is your biggest mistake this year?

hmmm. should i really mention it here?

If you could go back and redo things with your last ex, would you?

umm nah.

Your friend hooks up with the last person you kissed..what now?

et her hair on fire.

Do you like waking up and having new text messages?

love it

Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone?

yes. sigh.

Were you single on your last birthday?

nope

Do you think high school relationships can last?

never say never

Who was the last person you talked to in person today?

lil sist

Has a boy/girl ever cheated on you?

feck yes

So, the person you like, their name starts with an M doesnt it?

Have you ever thought about getting your tongue pierced?

Who was the last person you told “I love you” to?

babyboo

How are you feeling?

bored

Do you have feelings for anyone?

yes

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?

i have

Are you excited for anything?

Are you 100% single?

5% taken

Are you a clumsy person?

sometimes

Do you wear make up?

First place you went this morning?

bathroom

When was the last time you really laughed?

not yet

Were you dating anyone in December?

yes

Are you happy right now?

Do you sleep on your stomach?

Will this weekend be a good one?

who knows

awkward moments

2011-05-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

lately I have no mood at my house .

many problems ruin my life .

but let's cheer up !!

bya the way , tomorrow I will go to Jogja for study tour and live in .

so, will be a awkward moments or not ??

my baby is sick .

poor him :(

GET WELL REALLY SOON MY BABYBOO♥

yepyep .

wish me luck fellas , I will go at 4.30 A.M .

see ya soon

- RAND✿M -

599 . 05-09-09

THE DAY WHEN I TAKEN BY WELLY RADIUS ♥

its funny when we taking this pics :D and i will n ever forget that moments baby .

breakless mind

2011-05-13T23:53:00.000-07:00

hello bloggie!

I miss yaaaaa !!

so very very tired day I have through .

but I always think that Jesus will save me :')

lately I don't go to school for studying .

my school have Lustrum . so I wasting my time with my boy .

btw I have photo session with my boy , I will share now in Random :D

in the morning I fight with baby but when we want to go home we do a quick photoshoot !! lols .

and tomorrow is my Mom birthday . and tomorrow I will shopping too.I have tomorrow will be a good day

- R A N D ✿ M -

:(

2011-05-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

so tired lately .

no have free time for blogging .

but yeah i'll be back !!

Breathe

2011-04-24T07:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Easter , guys !

how you doing?

i'm living in my own world today, I don't talk much

but I need to talk to .....

need to Breathe for a while

so first I having my 10 days holiday

what i'm doing ??

play with my boyfie and friends , doing nothing with my boyfie , doing my assg , studying for my exam .

Friday, 15th april

he pick me up then we chillin' out ;) such a great day . when we going home is rain , he is take care of me !! ask me to wearing his helmet using his jacket and he do caring my legs and shoes . FYI that day I'm not going to school and he do school .

and when I'm in saloon he picked me up even in Depok was had BIG RAIN !!! and I spent time in his house doing nothing just with him and I am so love it !!

he introduce me into his family as his girlfriend

he hold my hand everymoment

he always pick me up

he caring me too much

he staring at me and said I'm beautiful with his smile

he take care of me anywhere anytime

he ask me to hug him when we're with his friend

he he and he . the only one ever .
my WELLY RADIUS ♥ . he belong to me .

and he is MINE ♥♥♥

okay here I share my .....

- R . A . N . D . ♥ . M -

beby's friends

sipah from aussie

korean snack

cream soup made by mum

my artworks again

They Mean

2011-04-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

my extra-LOVE for my superbugs

Low Blood

2011-04-20T02:25:00.000-07:00

i am stay in home about two days

i shud' finishing all my assg

but ..... always headache ruin my mood hiks .

LOW BLOOD GO AWAY !!!

now time for me go to math course .

and it's rain . can You be nice to me God :(

Mystifying Truth

2011-04-09T09:57:00.000-07:00

Fellas & Foe , here I am in the middle of night .

after doing all of my paper and assg .

sitting alone in front of pc then start writin g .

okay pretty long time I no updating this blog .

I have so much things to do which can make me freak out .

hey, I am still a human , a real human who need energy .

assignments paper homeworks examination and problems that I cant solve .

poor me .

bye the way . no people in this world who dont have any problems right , so keep silent Cindy! close your svckin mouth up!

somehow I know many man around world waiting for me .

but just because of my feeling to my bf , I refuse them .

then check what I get , sooooo nothing .

so disappointed , boy I do really love you .

dont ever think that I am weak , I am stronger you know .

I can make you broken into billion pieces if I want . and I am Seriously !!!

-RAND♥M-

Love Hangover

2011-03-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

wondering what you guys are doing on this Saturday night .

me just laying on my bed watchin' Dream High or reading The Necromancer .

I would be so jealous if you just go out with your date .

much much happened to me lately .

some make me wanna cry , some makes me happy .

ya ya I know no one no have any problems in this world .

so I just try to think that my problems no greater than peoples problems .

okay I don't know what I supposed to do .

I'm in love drunk , love hangover .

into you WELLY RADIUS

someone who I love the most but hurting me the most .

gimme the solution can't you ??

hmm i'm not in the mood .

be right back later :)

Quiz

2011-03-26T06:30:00.000-07:00

Found this quiz .. useless ?? hihi

TEN things about yourself:

too love my shoes & dress
shopping is best medicine when broken heart
i can't watch horror movies
enjoying writing this blog
drop tears when i feels my heart is too sick
hate a liar
jealousy girl
gadget addicited
twitter freaks
love about Korean pop

NINE of your favourite songs:

like a G6 - far east movement
just the way you are - bruno mars
superwoman - alicia keys
so sorry - brian mc knight
airoplanes - bob eminem hayley williams
pyramid - charice
my lips like sugar - florida
riding solo - jason derulo
tell me where it hurts - MYMP

EIGHT things you love/like:

shoes & heels
dress
blackberry
books
history & accountancy books
bed pillow bolstrers
cinema
body butter and lip gloss

SEVEN people you’re glad to have in your life:

Jesus Christ
mom
dad
lil sist
boyfriend
bestfriend
big family

SIX things you dislike:

people who always talk bad about me , but after that be my copycat
when my Aphrodite is lowbatt or broken even a little
my weight and height
silly teacher
when i have no time for sleep
ruin my day with theirs bad attitude

FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now:

i do love you
i hate when you ask my friend to hate me too . grr
i wanna be like you
i want that SLR too
can you forgive me ?

FOUR ways to win your heart:

love me so much, accept my moody cloud
not a liar
loyalty to me
never make me mad

THREE things you’ll most likely never forget:

some beautiful moments
his smell his kiss his hug
when i break into pieces

TWO things you do everyday:

live my life
holding Aphrodite anywhere everywhere

ONE confession:

i'm so into you , love :*

Timeless Lately

2011-03-20T07:52:00.000-07:00

Boo! Hello fellas

what's going on lately ??

first , me so thankful to Jesus Christ for my Mid-Raport :)

no words can describe how happy I am .

my efforts are not furtile just because of Him :)

thankyou God ..

second , shopping shopping always make me so fun .

bought Baskin , shoes and all stuff that I want .

washing my eyes and opened my mind .

third , yesterday 2PM was here in Jakarta they comin' by Blackberry .

my bestie Lydia Lee and Nathania have watchin the concert .

kyaaaa~ I'm envy for sure they seeing my Jun2daKay as Junsu :"(

fourth , me more in love with my fiance .

why ? it's simple when I'm in his house I watchin drama korean .

and I ask him to accompany me watchin' that drama , and ....

yes !!! he accompanying me even though he DISLIKE all about Korean .

whoaaa I do love you more deeply my Welly Radius :*

- R . A . N . D . ♥ . M -

They Say

2011-03-20T07:34:00.000-07:00

Spirit Needed

2011-03-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

now ..

nothing to do at home

not going to school

no have deadline to do

okay I have paper which I should do . But so lazzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyy :'(

can i find my spirit back ??

Mellifluous Blue

2011-03-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

Annabella Chellyine Christabell Cyrene

wish she can say "i don't think two people could have been happier than we've been" to others ♥

yeah, it's my facebook status now.

and I said that for sure.

I really hope I can said that words.

please :(

btw, my day so boring.

and I've destroyed my planning that today I shud' doing my paper.

okayokay. ~~I'm such a bad student.~~

*note :

my deepest condolence to the people of Japan,

particularly those who lost their loved ones in the earthquake and tsunami

#prayforjapan

Dulcet Symphony

2011-03-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

hello people ,

me back here .

i'm still sick and i started to hate my self :(

it's funny how we always have our own imagination of our future, but the paths were just broken into pieces. there's only a path left, and we ain't have choice. sometimes, when the dreams just couldn't fade away, like we've drawn it to our mind and our hearts, it's just simply no place left for the reality. we're walking on that path while still hoping that it's still a path to our dream future, yet it's just blur on forward because the path is longer. and it's funny i kept typing 'we', because i'm wishing i am not the only one that feel this feeling.

it's funny how dad and mum used to give us a lot of advices but we simply didn't obey them, and now we wish we would have been. it's funny how you don't know what to do, and how hard you wish God could answer your questions. it's funny how a bestfriend is the one that loved to destroy you.

it's funny when you keep typing your feeling for a million times, but you couldn't say it even for once.

it's funny how you could never ever feel the same feeling to the only exception. it's so funny i kept typing like everything above are funny when they're absolutely not funny at all.

and it's fair to have a dream, and keep believing that this is the path to our dream as well, just need to be patient.

for sure, i'm scared to dreaming about my future.

how it's gonna be ??

but overall me still have Jesus :)

when i looked that pictures, i;m think about my love life again and again.

how could it be . ~~why all turn out in this way ??~~

well, this is like a dulcet symphony that explodes from my heart.

i was one in love so deep, but this time, i fell in love even deeper.

this makes me wonder, am i gonna survive if it had to end in someway?

well, perhaps, nothing much i could do but to try my hardest.

but i got this big hunch, we'll just last for a long time.

make it happen.
prove it to people that we can be together for most of the time ;)
til death seperate us, perhaps? why not

ok i'm lying if i said that i'm not scared.

i'm scared i break into pieces :(

SICK-SVCK

2011-03-12T04:08:00.000-08:00

ulala

me back after a long time :D

so , i should feel extremely happy because MID TERMS is OVER

i've do that terms with all my heart , so please give me Your miracle Jesus

but i cant feel happy because i'm sick!!

hiks . too sick . my body is really bad .

will be back soon :D

please :(

2011-02-20T05:31:00.000-08:00

HATE MY LIFE , LATELY .

CAN I PAUSE MY LIFE FOR A DAYS ??

PLEASE , I'M SO TIRED BEING HEART SICKS :(

beloved babies

2011-02-14T08:44:00.000-08:00

GNight everyone, hows your valentine day ??

nothing special for me on this day . and i dont hope to be special .

okay here they are . my new babies .

till now i haven't give them name . huhu :(

here some RANDOM pics again :D

modified ;)

2011-02-13T05:58:00.000-08:00

and again .

i'm fill my day with doing many assg blogwalking tumblr-ing twitter-ing etc .

my pc+modem is too busy today .

so,

i have modified my blog (again) tumblr and twitter !!

for tumblr and twitter i do love the modified so much .

but my soul and the blog modified cant into one . oh gosh .

i should found another which make my mind comfort :D

bye the way , tomorrow is valentine day .

have you prepared , fellas ??

next post i will introduce my new babies :D

freak out

2011-02-12T23:28:00.000-08:00

I HAVE REACHED MY STRESS LIMIT

SCHOOL SUCKS , SO DOES LIFE !!!

check my worthy clicks!

2011-02-08T01:31:00.000-08:00

i just updated my worthy clicks

check it now , peeps ;)

bye the way , hows your day ??

for this day is very hard day .

from the morning till now just dong assg assg and assg .

but , i've done all assg now !!!!!

time for relax . see yaa :D

grows older

2011-02-06T00:29:00.000-08:00

24 January was my SWEET SIXTEEN !!!

it's been 16 years i live my life .

i've got sadness & happiness moments .

thank you Jesus for Your miracle

thank you Father & Mother for save me till now

thank you Welly Radius for the precious moment you've gave to me

thank you sister brother friends bestie and all who have fill my life

3 February is Chinese New Year

this year is Rabbit year .

okay nothing special in this year .

sad sad

5 february is my anniversary with Welly Radius

we have been in relationship for 17 months

and all over the day i'm love him more and more

beby , i love you for NO REASON !!!

so if you still asking me why i love you , i can't answer your question .

bye the way , i wanna welcoming Blue Satria-FU

his new motorcycle :)

I Can't

2011-01-01T04:16:00.000-08:00

Once I love you , your name is permanently tattooed on my heart .

No matter ~~how bad I try to erase it~~ , it will always remain there .

SICK OF CRYING

TIRED OF TRYING

I am smiling , but inside I am dying

You know what ?

I just dont understand about your attitude .

Always and always you do that

Please think how much you hurting me .

Isn’t good enought for you ? You want more ??

I CAN’T ..

Please LOVE ME WITH YOUR ALL or DON’T LOVE ME AT ALL .

confusion = galau = upset

2010-12-28T05:39:00.000-08:00

confusion = galau

lately i always feel that word

always crying when remember what he did

always hated my self when remember he did

i don't know what should i do

really , i don't know :"(

i just want my normal life back to me , please

Happy Christmas!

2010-12-24T19:25:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas , fellas !!

the bell is ringing

let's sing to forget the bad things and remember the God's loving .

it is everlasting .

and filled this Christmas with love , peace and joy :)

this month is the last month in 2010

I wanna say ,

thanks to those who hated me , you made me a stranger person

thanks to those who loved me , you made my heart bigger

thanks to those who were worried about me , you let me know that you actually cared

thanks to those who left me , you made me realize that nothing last forever

thanks to those who entered my life , you made me who I'm today

Thank You for being there in my life whenever I might have meant to you .

Jesus Christ my Savior ♥

Parents , Sister

my boyfriend ♥

my bestfriend

Christmas Night :)

2010-12-23T19:21:00.000-08:00

today is Christmas Night

tomorrow Jesus Christ was born :)

God , bless this Christmas

give the peace around the world .

Silent Night

Silent night, holy night!
All is calm, all is bright.
Round yon Virgin, Mother and Child.
Holy infant so tender and mild,
Sleep in heavenly peace,
Sleep in heavenly peace.

Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight.
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia,
Christ the Savior is born!
Christ the Savior is born.

Silent night, holy night!
Son of God love's pure light.
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With dawn of redeeming grace,
Jesus Lord, at Thy birth.
Jesus Lord, at Thy birth

let's counting days !!

2010-12-23T05:54:00.000-08:00

Hey ya .

Have you counting days for Christmas Eve ??

Have you making a wish list to Santa Claus ??

Yesterday was Mother’s Day right ?

I can’t say Happy Mother’s Day , Mum .

I just can stare at her , say something that make her laugh .

I love my Mom for everything she has done for me .

I never want her to go out of my life .

I cant stand my life if there is no my Mom T.T

God , please bless my Mom and teach me how to loved her and always make her happy till the time is end .

I love you , Mom :”)

Those minutes where I am alone , just me and my bed pillow blankets .

I think .

A lot .

I think about everything , anything .

It varies from “What am I doing with my life ?” , “What are my boy doing right now?” , “Can I trust & keep his promise?” “How about my scores and my raport?” to “Did I have homework or exam?”

The room is so silent , but my mind is so loud .

It drives me crazy because the things I would never think about , I think about .

Sometimes , I hate it because it brings up things I rather never think about again .

The split second before sleep is the most activate second in my life .

Its became my routine , but if I too tired I am laying down .

Then , I wake up .

Hoping the bad past was just a dream .

Unfortunately , that’s a realty , now I stand up to fix the wretch :)

Some people said

“Life was much easier when Apple and BlackBerry were just fruits”

Really ?? I can’t say that was right or wrong .

Because I sometimes feel thats right and wrong .

Bye the way , yesterday I was wasting time with my Welly Radius .

I’m so happy , he is beside me , I can touch him whenever I want .

Watch TV , laying my head to his arms , got his big hug .

In love , there’s always a point of getting tired .

Especially when the person is untentionally making you feel worthless .

In relationship , it’s okay to fight .

It shows you care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to fix it .

It scares me ,

How sometimes I think there is someone out there who can love you better I do .

Someone who wouldn’t easily get jealous .

Someone who could take care of you .

I’m just scared that there’s someone out there who can make you much , much happier .

- R - A - N - D - O - M -

Christmas Eve is Comingg !!

2010-12-21T06:03:00.001-08:00

Hello Peopleeeeeeeeee :) :)

Christmas Eve is coming less than five days !!!

Me starting counting the days of course :D

Dear Santa , can i make make wish list please ??

Would you come and give me the present ??

Ah I hope :)

18 December 2010

Is the day for taking my raport , but because I had a plan with my bestie Lydia Lee so I didn’t take the raport .

And till now , I don’t know abour my score . Will share it when I take the raport .

In that day me with Lydia going to watch The Next Three Days @ XXI Botani – 09:00 AM , after that eat @ Oenpao , then going to Ekalokasari for watch Narnia .

I’d shopping in there , oh my so fast for me to spending money . Ckck .

In fact I never like action film , but after watching The Next Three Days .. It’s changes .

The Next Three Days is such a great movies . I don’t have doubt about it :D

20 December 2010

Korean Freak is gathering again .

No plan about this gath but here we are .

Sharing , watch video , listening music .

Just lil activity but mean so BIG for me :)

Then my beby texting me , he is want meet me .

I meet him and HE IS MAKE ME MELTING .

Lols , it is fact !! I don’t know why he can do that .

One faith, one flag, one mission and one love for INDONESIA.. Come on Garudaaaaa...!!!

-Bambang Pamungkas

And bye the way , now I likes watch Football Match .

Honestly it is because Irfan Haarys Bachdim :D

I never likes watch football match before .

But Indonesia amazed me with GOOD result in every match .

I hope in this holiday ,

I have much story which I can share here .

Long time I not blogging and it’s just becase Lazy . lols .

- R . A . N . D . O . M -

Bye Examination ;)

2010-12-09T06:31:00.000-08:00

examination is FINISHED today !!!

I celebrate it with my beby and friends :)

still waiting about the score

~~dag-dig-dug~~

ugh I'm scare , God give Your miracle please :")

8 December is my lil sist birthday .

will share the photos ;)

bye the way , holiday is coming !!

wohooo .

what's your plan , fellas ??

will give you some

- R A N D O M -

ready I'm ready

2010-11-29T21:51:00.000-08:00

SEMESTER EXAM

is START TOMORROW !!

I AM READY !!

BLESS ME GOD :)

will be right back after the exams is OVER

♥♥♥

BYE :)

2010-11-27T18:38:00.001-08:00

I am starting to MOVING ON

You hurts my heart again and again .

Why ??

Now my heart can’t accept anymore . It’s too SICK .

IT’S ENOUGH HONEY :) GOOD BYE .

ILOVEYOU .

*when my school celebrating teachers day :D

2010-11-16T04:42:00.000-08:00

I need to learn , I can't stand by myselves .

Alone and lonely .

That'll never happen .

I need someone as my companion, friends, family, even strangers.

That's how life works .

These days , I've been busy with assignment .

Wish me luck guys , I have no strength and energy to carry on , but I still have to do it anyway .

May these inspiring you , fellas :)

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,

And each road leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,

If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,

All the ones who love you, in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

And you always give more than you take.

This is my wish

I hope you know somebody loves you

May all your dreams stay big

- My Wish by Rascal Flatts

And Happy Eid Mubarak for my Muslim friends :)

Have a Blessed day

I Miss You :")

2010-11-16T04:36:00.000-08:00

I can’t talk much

I do not know what happened to my own

Don't you know ?

How do I need you so much

How do I cannot breath without you inside of my head

How do I miss you , I want you , I hope that you always there for me when I'm on the edge of the sadness

in every hour , in every minute , in every second , in every time in my life , I always thinking about you .

This only small piece of my thought about you ,

That always "you" in every word that I wrote ,

That always "you" in every sentence that I said ,

How can i show you that I'm really love you ?

I always need you in my life , I want you to be my steps for I take the chance .

I want you to be the one who's always walk beside me whenever I need someone to be my place for go home , and I want you always to be someone who's always protect me from my fear .

Are my hopes so hard for being true ?

I just want you , no one can change your place .

In the deepest part of my heart , I just want you to know that I can't live without you .

I'm more than that

2010-11-07T01:35:00.000-07:00

Everyone always talk about my style , my activity , my hobby even my daily-studying .

Like those leaves stick with their branches , whenever i'm apart , I'll lose my life and turn into dust .

The wind will blow me away , to a new place where people don't care and look at me with disgust face .

But you know what ? I'm more than that .

I know I could do better , that's when I could resurrect myself , bring my soul back into life .

Be the new bud that will grow into some beautiful plant.

Trends come and go . Time moves forward . The world keeps on developing . Everything changes . What is there to keep , is our identity , our values , our stand .

Never let anything or anyone change who you truly are and what you believe in .

Be yourself . 100% original .

Enormous wave of feeling kept on hitting the cliff of my heart .

Little by little , time by time , it wrecks and gone.

The deeper the pit, the deeper my heart is hurt , but i don't mind , as long as you are with me. Altogether throughout sadness and sickness.

Beby , I feel you in my veins .

Whenever you are , up in the sky or down in the ocean .

I belong to you ,

Willhelm Edward Antoine Radius .

Bye the way , my Boo :)

my BLOG is BACK !!!

2010-11-02T07:55:00.000-07:00

FINALLY

MY BLOG IS BACK !!!

I miss blogging-activity so much .

So here I am . I’m back :)

It’s been long time since the last post .

TOO MANY occurence that happens in my life .

I wanna share it all for sure , but i don’t know how .

Maybe one by one .

My mid terms score is GOOD .

Thank you Jesus Christ for Your help and miracle .

I’m so happy when I see my score and I’ve got rank .

No words can describe how much I thankfull for Jesus .

Then my daily school is like usually .

Study and study , do my assigments paper and homeworks .

I make artwork for Geography about Saving World .

And my teacher said it’s so beautifull . Oh I’m so happy then :)

I will share it .

Yeah I do love studying , but I hate school like hell .

I dunno why I hate school , because in my first year in Senior High I’m very excited for going to school .

Ah too lazy think about it anymore :’(

16.10.2010

I’m visited Santika Hotel in Botani Square , I’m stayed there 2 days .

I watching Eat Pray Love in XXI Botani .

Great movie !!

My love-life .

I can’t lie, I love Willhelm Edward Antoine Radius .

I love him too much , too deep .

So if he hurts me , it would hurts me more deep too .

look at us, running around, always rushed, always late. guess that's why they call it the human race. but sometimes, it slows down just enough for all the pieces to fall into place. fate works its magic, and you're connected. every once in a while amid all the randomness, something unexpected happens and it pushes us all forward. and the truth is, what i'm starting to think, what i'm starting to feel, is that maybe the human race isn't a race after all.

Hello beby, I missed you .

How about you then ?? Miss me ??

Yesterday I just saw your notes book , it’s been we’re in X-3 class .

You know beby I miss that time, I miss that memories .

Today I’m angry with you, but you can see how long I can angry with you ??

It’s hard for me to angry with you , because I love you .

Beby , if you know that I love you .

Please don’t hurts me anymore , I’m tired being sick and lonely :’(

- RANDOM-

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